Didnt go to work yesterday. Visited the doctor instead and received so many medicine, which is already nothing new to me. I just had to get away from evrything that was haunting my mind.
Like what the doc once said, Im under a lot of pressure.
Met Rusdi yesterday to talk. Cried my lungs out when I was with him. He talked to me slowly and seriously which made me think about how dumb my actions were nowadays. I couldnt stop my tears but since we both had no tissues, I had to stop crying. Hehe. Thanks Rusdi for always being there for me all the time. You have been a very nice friend, a friend who really listens and a friend who really cares.
After that, received a call from Aliff and we planned to meet. He reached tampines at 10.15pm and we didnt know where to go. He rode aimlessly, made jokes about other riders and their pillion and for that moment, I forgot all my worries. Finally, he stopped his bike and we were again, at lower peirce reservoir. The place where we met for the very first time after 2 years of going missing.
Sat down at the very same bench and that was when the heart to heart talk started. Whatever he said made sense and I understood every bit of it. Finally, everything was out and Im glad that it's finally settled. But again, I cried in the middle of the dark night and I thought he wasnt able to see but I was wrong. He saw and he felt guilty. Sorry, but I just couldnt help it. Everything is in sucha mess and I just needed to cry it out. Thanks to you too for comforting me and sending me home every single time without fail even though we live so far away.
Im glad I have great friends around. And to Ana too, for always being there to listen to my never ending problems. To Annisa who cares and always asking if Im alright. To Eefah who always wants to hear my every story and no matter how much I tried to hide things from her, she just knows when Im feeling down and in the end I will pour out to her. To Ily, who cares but has gone missing because of her busy airport life. :p
And to those not mentioned, THANKS. :)
I realised my blog is getting boring and not lively as it used to be. But oh well, things are just not working out and I just have to bear with it. :(
Friday, June 12, 2009