Didnt go to work on Monday because I wasnt in the correct mood and position to be working. I took MC and the bill was $30 just for 3 tablets. Only 3 tablets! Bahhh~

After that, went to An's house to visit his sick mum. I dont know why but it felt odd being there in the house after so long of not going there. It was like as if I was new to everyone, I was like.. A stranger? After 45 mins in the house, Ijal was already at the carpark waiting for me and so I left. It felt very weird, all eyes were on me. Their expressions when they saw me putting on my helmet, sitting at the back of another guy's bike. I was very nervous, so many things were on my mind, especially about what his parents were thinking.

Ijal and me sat near bedok interchange and we talked about stuffs. I was close to tears when we talked because.. Well, I dont feel like mentioning it.

Yesterday went out with Ily and after she left, I met Ijal again for another karaoke session, which again of course, I didnt sing. They had their supper at Geylang while I had my green tea and 3 motors sent me home. :)

Today is the 20th and Ive been moody since morning.

Is this the kind of life I want? Is this really what I want?

this is lina ~ 4:40 PM