I duno how many times Ive shed my tears, I dun even know how to describe my feelings right now. I didnt get to see him for the last time but its ok. Aku redha.

Do you know that it was so sad to hear the takbir just now when everything is still in a mess? We didnt even eat our break fast cos none of us had the mood or appetite. This has been the most saddest last day Ramadhan celebrated by me and my family.

We wont be going anywhere tomorrow except to my aunt's house ( where my arwah Anjang stays). It is not going to be a normal Raya for us. We dont even have the festive mood like most of you have. Losing your loved ones is hard, especially right before we heard the takbir.

Thank you so much for the many2 people who have smsed me. I shall stay strong.


You know, it was a coincidence that I didnt buy any Baju Raya this year. Cos we are not even going to wear any nice outfit on.

Slamat hari Raya

Maaf Zahir Batin to all.

Im starting to cry all over again....