Sunday, October 28, 2007


Dian was wearing this orange kebaya just now and she laughed and giggled all the way. She didn't cry the whole day even though she refused to follow anyone except her family and mine. We only went to 2 houses just now and that was the end of our Raya session.






27th October. (Raya outing + A's birthday)

He was shivering at this point of time. He was EXTREMELY embarrassed when all of us sang his birthday song. A lot of his friends snapped his pictures and his mum said this to me. "Ina, gi amek gambar dengan an berdua." I was shaking my head and said I was shy. And she said, "alah kau ni, nak malu pulak. Gi amek cepat." So this is the photo we took.


A lot more were taken but only a few are with me so I will update when I have it. Here are some.





The whole day was great a even though very tiring. I was sweating in most houses as there were too many people. We went by bus and there like 30+ people all in a living room. We managed to go to about 10+ houses and I reached home at around 1am. By then, my mum already called for me to go home.

My mum is beginning to accept An and she's beginning to let me go out with him a lot. As in a lot more than she usually did the last few years. And well, I'm loving it! =)

I'm really happy An is very pleased with the gifts I bought for him. By the way Farhan, you don't have to say you feel bad that I used a lot of my money on you for your birthday. I really don't mind as it only comes once in year. Anyway, I don't usually have that much money if I don't save up. So, just enjoy with everything and don't ever feel embarrassed aite. =)

Even though I enjoyed myself, something else bothers me a lot. I went to the doctor again yesterday morning and I found out something else about me. The words that my doctor said played in my head every time. To the people who knows about this, thank you for caring about me. I really hope nothing very bad happens. I will accept fate even though I'm extremely scared to face it. I will be going for an ultrasound soon. I get to know my sickness one after the other.
Aku tak habis-habis menyusahkan orang tua aku. (sigh)




I try to be nice, but you just laugh.
I'm not fitting in anymore, what can I do?
You don't realize, but it's starting to hurt.
When everything's just right, it always turns to dirt.
Help me, what am I doing wrong?
I don't understand, I'm there when your not strong.
I try to be happy most of the time, but it's getting harder now,
knowing your friendship isn't mine.


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this is lina ~ 10:56 PM