The turning point in the process of growing up is
when you discover the core strength
within you that survives all hurt.
As people say, life is full of ups and downs. I believe in that. No one in this world experience only happy moments in their lives, neither do i. I do experience bitter times when i have no one to talk to, absolute no one, as i know no one will understand. i don't believe it when someone say this to me, "I know how you feel but you just have to let things go". That's purely insane. You are not me, and i am not you. No one feels what somebody else feels as you are who you are. You may just sympathise the person but you can never feel the same way. Even if you had been through the same scenario, it doesn't mean you exactly know that what you felt is what he/she is feeling right now. Get my point straight. This is to everyone who reads my blog. No one in particular, i swear.
Today, I did my part in doing the household chores and i looked after Dian. i didn't go out as i had no plans and no one asked me out anyway. Talked to An quite a few times on the phone just now. We are getting along well as each day pass. Just normal regular quarelling sessions occur now and then but it ends fast, just before i even know it.
I've never exactly shared how i got to know An to anybody, i guess, except Shameer and Hidayah knows how it started. Well, thanks to Shameer. He was the one who brought us together. :)) I can clearly remember that day after one of my exams that I, Hidayah and Azleen went to meet Shameer, An and Azri. We sat at block "lipas" where i threw a cockroach at An. It was soo DAMN funny when he ran like a mad dog after seeing the cockroach. Me and Azleen were then chasing after him and finally we all got tired and sat down. A lot more things happened, like for example, we were all trying to spot where each of our weakness part is. Had fun. And TA-DA, that was the day we both fell in love. HAHA. Pelik eh love story. An fell in LOVE with a girl who threw something he HATES. Aneh tetapi benar. :))
Well, i don't wish to describe the teeny-weeny details of how Shameer helped An to get me and everything. That's privacy. It was hilarious actually, how things worked on that day, but still, it was cute of them.
i really miss the moments i was so close to Hidayah. I talked to her that night as i was so nervous about accepting An. She was the one who laughed with me, excited for me. Well, let bygone be bygone. Let's be HAPPY! :))
I miss my GFs terribly. I feel jealous every single time peope hang out with old classmates. An has his old time bestie, my poly friends hang with their own old friends. What about me? Who do i hang out with? Just An most of the time. Macam takde kawan laen. It's not like i'm not happy hanging out with An and his friends, but i want my own friends to go out with, to talk nonsense with. Oh please, let's all meet up again. I miss each and every single of you. But DAMN, i'm working a lot this month. I just have to.
toodles.
Monday, September 3, 2007