It's been very long since i updated. I've not been at home lately due to difficult situations.

13th September & 14th September.
Our very first day of fasting. Everything went well in the morning and afternoon. Breaking fast with my mum, sis and brother-in-law was not that merry as not my whole family was there. However, Abg Hafiz(brother-in-law) was exceptionally quiet on that night. After eating, we prayed together and Abg hafiz went for Terawih. While he was gone, i sat in my brother's room, taling to Edah, Baidura and Yati. AFter talking for 1hour and 20mins, i hung up. By then, my sis and Abg Hafiz already left. I then talked to An on the phone, played my lappie when suddenly, the phone rang.

My dad was saying this "Ziana, sabar. Cakap pelan2. Jangan nangis. Ayah tk dengar." Then there was a pause, and he continued "Ayah pass talipon kat mak k, kau bual dengan mak."
After that, i heard my mum said "OK. anything call cepat2."

By that time, i was half-curious, half-panic. I went to my mum and asked her what happened. She told me that Abg Hafiz's dad had heart attack and fell down. She said my sister is on her way to NUH. I went back to my room feeling sad and worried. I really hoped everything would be fine when the phone rang again.

I couldn't hear a thing as my mom spoke softly. A few minutes later, my mum came to me and asked me to hurry put something on as we have to rush to the hospital.
"Adik, doctor kata pakcik dah takda harapan. Cepat siap, kita pergi." Boy, wasn't i shock and i had goosebumps all over when my mum said that to me. While i was grabbing a piece of shirt and my mum was about to get hers, the phone rang... Again.

This time, i sensed something was wrong as i saw tears rolling down my mum's cheek. Once she hung up, the words she said to me made me extremely shocked and sad.
"Adik, pakcik dah takda."
My whole body was suddenly so weak and had goosebumps all over again. It went so fast, way too fast. However, as we all know, every living thing will die in the end. REDHA was the keyword here. I sympathise Irah, Abg Hafiz's younger sis who is very close to her dad.

My mum and me went to their house at Jurong with my pakcik and dad. By the time we reached, makcik was sitting beside the bed where the jenazah was. She was in tears. I salam her and hugged her. There were not many people as it was already 1am plus. Abg Haifz's elder sister talked to my mum and said that while they were breaking fast that night, her dad said this. "Besok kite terawih dekat pusara aman eh? Saye nak pergi pusara aman besok lah." And her sister thought it was a joke and only laughed. No one expected what he said will come true. All the way, i sat beside Irah. She cried all the way, and i hugged her tightly to console her. Then after that me and my mum went home at 3am.

I went home, sahur, solat and then slept at 6am and woke up at 8.30am to go back to Jurong. Many were there by then and we both sat beside my sis and makcik while jenazah dimandikan. Abg Hafiz didn't cry. He was calm all the time.

We went to the cemetery and all guys went for friday's prayer while we girls stayed in the bus. Then we went to the spot where where the jenazah akan dikebumikan. After the whole process, Abg Hafiz stood in front of the grave and cried. He didn't moan or anything, just tears kept flowing down continuously and my dad came to him and hugged him. That was when Irah also broke into tears and so did i.

It's really sad to lose the ones you love. I know.

(sigh)

Semoga rohmu dicucuri rahmat. AMIN.

15th September.
I went to Jurong to break fast with An and his family. His relatives were fun, with Cik Nana always picking on me, Auntie Ros always making me laugh and Ibu always making me stammer. HAHA. They were simply great. They solat jemaah and had Terawih. Well, there were loads of food but i was so shy i ate like a mouse. Really, I felt so shy once i entered the house with all eyes staring. But they treated me like i was part of the family. Well, INSYA-ALLAH kalau ade jodoh lah eh. Tunggu lagi 7 tahon or more year dear Farhan. :)

4 more days to our bigggg dayy.. :)

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this is lina ~ 4:25 PM